Just an hour ago, I found myself’ streaming endless tears of joy and gratitude in my Father’s garden. I streamed these same vibrant tears the whole drive home from having dropped him off at the airport shuttle stop. Ba doesn’t like to be driven to the airport. He says it wastes gas, money, and time for the driver, and never wishes to trouble anyone else for anything. ANY THING. Emotions, words of love, and hugs are a very distant and foreign language in our household. I remember hugging each one of my family members only two birthdays ago. It was awkward for all of us.
BUT, Ba & I had our First Two REAL HUGS today as I bid him happy journeys to Asia. What do I mean by this? If you’ve been to one of my workshops, or to a conscious festival, you know what I’m talking about. We held each other heart to heart for a few seconds. He didn’t squirm away or do the side-hug thing, well the butterfly hug the first time. The second time though, we hugged heart to heart, and gave each other a solid hold. It may have only been a couple seconds, but I will always remember it as a Treasured Moment present in the now. OK, I’m streaming tears again now. Just a puddle of mushy goodness today…
Had he held me and I him like so when I was a child? Did I run to him and held him in my arms when I was wee-little? I don’t remember. Maybe I should dare to ask him one day…
That, after we argued this morning, touching upon old wounds, on his dry cleaning delivery route that I’m picking up in his place. And instead of going down the old familiar route of dragging more past into the surface again, even as I felt some of that pain, I chose to let the biting thought go, cease the addictive cycle, and allowed some breaths to pass.
I just read some wisdom about this day’s energetic frequency in Mysticmamma:
“Yes, sometimes the world is a scary place, but why let that stop us from living the life we were born to live. We are all being called to go on our hero’s journey out into the world. Begin. Now is the time, and this is the place. And don’t forget to Dance!” — Cathy Pagano
http://bit.ly/1o75ZCT. Perhaps it’ll resonate for you.
Meantime, back to creating more of what #DreamShiftInspire will evolve into as a documentary and bring more connectedness. Have a Super Full Moon!!! <3